The Real Life Joker !

Wondering on a lonely evening, the thoughts came to a stand still;

Why is it always me, was the question?

Or was there a chance that your mind was as thoughtful as mine?

The doubts in my mind were pretty serious;

But you did not do anything to clear my fears.

It was me who cleared my ends always,

Even after this, my hopes were high,

But I never realized that I am still a little child at heart,

And a child’s desires are often too true to be achieved.

I still went on the same path, with a smile on my face; 

In the very hope that I might one day get a chance to look life from your side;

But what I never knew was the fool which I was making of myself,

I thought myself of a joker and laughed at myself,

I wish I would have realized that you were laughing on me and not on the jokes;

Everytime I smile and let it go thinking there shall be one who would value this joker,

But what I often forget is jokers are to be laughed at,

And not someone with whom you share.

I did not stop there and went on with whatever tiny strength I had,

That one day either people would value me;

Or Envy me.

That one day either people would value me;

Or Envy me.

Getting Carried Away!

Hey Friends,
It has been a long time since I have written something. Not that I didnot feel like writing but it is just that excitement of writing was missing!

The topic for this blog post is probably not defined. It is just that rush of heart beats that has lead me to writing this! It is funny how immature we were during our teens. Getting carried away in friendships was a normal thing. You have a new friend, you have had an awesome time once and what follows it is a series of day dreams. Going on a trip, spending quality time etc are just examples of such dreams. The funny part about it is, the older you become, the more cautious you become of falling for such a dream. But Suddenly getting carried away is the toughest thing!

The question might arise why is it so? Because it is simply not affordable to spend your time for just getting carried away. And suddenly you have thoughts like what if the other person is least interested in your friendship? What if the other person doesnot care even 1% of what you feel. The problem with "emotional" human heart is, it doesnot know where to stop! It just goes with the flow. So why suddenly getting carried away is not feasible? Because the previous times whenever you have been carried away, the end result more often than not have been not encouraging. You develop a fear due to it. That is why it is said that as life passes by, more practical you should be!

But again, who doesnot want to feel the awesome feeling of getting carried away. That awesome feeling of being in that imaginary world with the group of people you want to be around. Sometimes you feel whatever you day dream should turn into reality and life would be just so exciting!

So should we get carried away? I do not know. It certainly is the most amazing feeling. But if the things do not go as assumed, the pain and disappointment that follows is something hard to deal with. But that sound of heart beat, that excitement in your eyes and that positive feeling you get while getting carried away is probably the best feeling! As said during the start of my blog, the topic is very vague. But this is something I had to write to calm my heart down.

 "Getting Carried away is certainly an amazing feeling, but what follows next requires strength to deal with."

With Love & Regards,
Purvil Kamdar